Thank you! This is so beautiful and timely. I had an encounter once when I was much younger with an energy that I knew was God. It was disturbing for me at the time because it wasn’t the kindly father I had been indoctrinated with but a constantly shifting and beautiful pulsation of light, color and geometry. It didn’t offer me affection or reassurance and that was deeply unsettling at the time. It felt distant and detached and yet immediate. I have sat with that for years and am only beginning to understand the essence of that encounter. You have in many ways touched that essence in this post. Thank you.
By the way, I love the description: " It felt distant and detached and yet immediate." This a perfect rendition of a higher love-- it is immediate, and therefore accessible and intimate, and beautiful, and therefore attractive and compelling, and yet "distant and detached" because it does not speak in human emotion but rather a higher language. The fact that you were a child, shows that there was enough maturity in your soul to receive it (otherwise it would not be presented)-- a "slow burn" if you will, so that is part of the spiritual education, is it not?
Yours is a perfect example. What can be wondrous and deeply effecting, can also be hard to understand and even a little intimidating, because it calls you beyond yourself rather than comforts you. But, believe it or not, this presentation to YOU and you alone is and act of faith in that presence in YOU. Think of it that way. That your heart and soul understands its design and intent even if your emotions and thoughts do not quite "grok" what it is all about. As you say, this planted a seed that is growing in you: "I have sat with that for years and am only beginning to understand the essence of that encounter." I think that was probably the point of the encounter, spiritual planting and growth vs. epiphany or comfort!
Thank you! This is so beautiful and timely. I had an encounter once when I was much younger with an energy that I knew was God. It was disturbing for me at the time because it wasn’t the kindly father I had been indoctrinated with but a constantly shifting and beautiful pulsation of light, color and geometry. It didn’t offer me affection or reassurance and that was deeply unsettling at the time. It felt distant and detached and yet immediate. I have sat with that for years and am only beginning to understand the essence of that encounter. You have in many ways touched that essence in this post. Thank you.
By the way, I love the description: " It felt distant and detached and yet immediate." This a perfect rendition of a higher love-- it is immediate, and therefore accessible and intimate, and beautiful, and therefore attractive and compelling, and yet "distant and detached" because it does not speak in human emotion but rather a higher language. The fact that you were a child, shows that there was enough maturity in your soul to receive it (otherwise it would not be presented)-- a "slow burn" if you will, so that is part of the spiritual education, is it not?
Yours is a perfect example. What can be wondrous and deeply effecting, can also be hard to understand and even a little intimidating, because it calls you beyond yourself rather than comforts you. But, believe it or not, this presentation to YOU and you alone is and act of faith in that presence in YOU. Think of it that way. That your heart and soul understands its design and intent even if your emotions and thoughts do not quite "grok" what it is all about. As you say, this planted a seed that is growing in you: "I have sat with that for years and am only beginning to understand the essence of that encounter." I think that was probably the point of the encounter, spiritual planting and growth vs. epiphany or comfort!